Two different types of flirtation

Flirtation comes in many different forms: Sometimes it feels natural and with sparks flying from the start - but sometimes it is more insecure, both persons wanting to flirt, but somehow not quite knowing how to make it start.
Looking back my romance with the Slovenian fell in to the first category while my what-ever-it-is with the Shy One definetely fits more with the second category. Some of was the difference between a one-night that is more passionate than normal and then an attraction both parts might not quite understand - but that might lead to an actual serious relationship:

I have been mailing and awfull lot with the Shy One these past few days - which of course is not the worst thing to do.
It has however been a strange way of mailing: Of course there has been the all to familiar work-related topics - but now mixed with more personal communications, but on a weird "we are 12 years old and don't really now how to behave in front of each other"-level. I wonder what it will be like when we are suddenly face to face again - and when that will happen... hopefully it will not be long. I know I will do what I can to be sent to Brussels for a meeting or something - or else I have to pay my self and come up with some sort of new excuse.

She is fascinating and not only because some of the guys at the Brussels office claim that she cannot be seduced, let alone taken to bed - but because she is both intelligent and independent and just has got that special something. Oh yeah and then of course she's got a killer body but apparently without even knowing it her self.
The case is, if I do end up doing something with her it should be more than just a fling - she is actual girl friend-material and I think I will probably have to find a way to let her know that before anything serious happens.

At the same time she is so different from the Slovenian - the other girl I was flirting with at the conference. They are so opposite, and yet I was attracted to them both - but in very different ways. It confused me a bit and actually still confuses me, but maybe it's a sign that I am finally opening my eyes and realizing the opportunities around me.
(Oh yeah and at the same time I am looking forward to the Slovenian coming back from holidays and logging on to messenger - 'caus that will definetely be an .... uhm.. interesting experience I think...)


But why am I writing and thinking about all this and in this way? Somehow it seems so much clearer to me that it used to do - even though there a definetely also complications that I haven't mentioned here yet. Could it be - am I on my way to overcoming my fear of being happy with girl (be it for a long time or just for a night)? Boy, that would be nice...