How I envied that droplet of sweat

Funny thing how what seems to be the smallest and most insignificant things can make you stop and wonder.

While I was packing the bag for this weekend my hand stumbled upon something - half a pack of condoms. They probably slipped down in one of the pockets during my last use of the bag (and of the condoms). In itself nothing special - having some condoms lying around is after all quite a smart thing to do.
However these condoms made me think about the last girl I used them with - the Slovenian. A few hours earlier I had finally taken the time to browse through my photos from the conference (and not least all the sight seeing) - and there she was as well: the Slovenian. Standing in a stream in the forrest looking at me, smiling. I edited the picture, cut away the other people there so that in the end there was only her - standing and smiling to me.

I remember taking the picture; remember walking along the river with her on our way to the waterfall. This was early in our flirt - I actually think it was the time we found out how well we connected. Later it evolved and that was what came back to me when I found the rest of the condoms.
Suddenly I could close my eyes and see her very clearly: The belly piercing, her eyes - and the droplets of sweat that ran down her neck. I envied those droplets, she had a nice neck - and it was a nice journey down it.
But shit, why do I suddenly remember her this clearly? And why do I so long to feel her hands running up and down my back again - maybe because I know it probably won't happen again? (or maybe it will... you never know).
Or is it because it was passion more than feelings - and that I long for the sudden chemistry, the push-pull and the forgetting the age difference between us?
If not, could it be because of the contrast to my what-ever-it-is-I-have-going-with - with the Shy onethe Slovenian it was so much easier. We played the game but we both knew it. With the Shy one it is more difficult and slower - though we have been mailing together today as well.

OMG I could use that burning passion right now - just like I would be great if the Shy one had just a little bit of the daring and bad-girl attitude of the Slovenian.

But well let's see what the future brings (and how soon I can find and excuse to be sent to Brussels - so that I can hopefully close the deal with the Shy one.)...